Whew. I haven't written for ages. Life takes a hold of me and I lose track of time and space. So much happens in one day sometimes, that the time from sun-up to sun-down takes hundreds of hours. Or so it seems.

I had my 20 week ultrasound yesterday and discovered we are having a boy. Yay! I am happy, and would have been just as happy if we were having a girl (Lucy Jo), but actually, I am simply relieved that so far the baby is healthy and developing properly. His head and heart and lungs and kidneys and liver and limbs are all normally growing and beating and moving. He was so cute, with his hands folded in front of his face, so we could not see his facial features really. For a brief moment we saw his mouth and nose and it looked like he was blowing me a kiss. He was really wiggling around, little buddy. I love feeling him move. I remember when John was born, one thing I really missed was feeling him moving inside of me. It is surprising and fun when baby moves, making me wonder what he is doing and thinking. Was that his elbow jabbing me or his hand? Is he telling me he is doing wonderfully or asking me to lean a different way? Is he happy or agitated as he pokes and wiggles. Is he dancing and running and hopping? We used to call John our little Johnny Jump-Up, since he seemed to jump inside of me. Now he loves to jump on and off everything. So cute.

I can't believe we are half-way to giving birth. Time is flying by. Our days are filled with playing and chores and errands and singing and stories and dancing and climbing and sliding and swinging and sandbox and water and hiding in the bushes and bark. John is all about having fun and laughing, which is so good for me. He reminds me daily that "for every job that's done, there is an element of fun. You find the fun and....SNAP...the job's a game." John is so good for me. I can't imagine loving him more than I do, yet every day I love him more and more and find new things about him which are delightful.

I'm so lucky. So is our new baby - to have such an wonderful big brother and best friend. I hope so much for my two boys to adore each other and take care of each other and wrestle and share and test each other and accept each other and love each other more than anyone else. I hope they play well together, motivating and nudging and encouraging and helping along the way. I hope I can help create a strong loving trusting bond between the two of them.